It does help. Did. I just... [ Cisco closes his eyes, feeling the tears welling up again but refusing to give in to them. ] It's stupid but I wanna pretend for a couple minutes that it's done and I'm never ever gonna see him again.
[ That had been the one thing that had helped, in the hard months after Eobard's death, and Eddie's, when Barry and Caitlin had gone off to lick their wounds alone and had left Cisco to deal with his trauma on his own. As far as closure went, seeing a guy dissolve into the air was pretty conclusive.
But it wasn't, because there were still the nightmares, and the visions, and now he's here with the knowledge that anyone could show up from any point in the timeline, including Eobard. That hadn't bothered him too much, before now.
Cisco has been trying not to move his head, so Taako can work on the braids more easily, but he does tilt it back enough that he can swallow down the rest of the wine in his cup. Sure, getting completely drunk isn't the ideal way of coping with things, but right now Cisco isn't even bothering to aim for ideal. He'll settle for temporarily effective. Even if it does make him run his mouth maybe a little more than he ought to. ]
I should've told you all of that ages ago. About him murdering me. I just... [ Cisco's voice cracks, and he clears his throat, waiting a moment until he can speak in some semblance of calm before he continues: ] ....it's stupid. I mean you've died, like, a dozen times or whatever, and you're not falling to pieces, and I died once and it was an erased timeline so it doesn't even fucking count probably and I'm a- a basket case.
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[ That had been the one thing that had helped, in the hard months after Eobard's death, and Eddie's, when Barry and Caitlin had gone off to lick their wounds alone and had left Cisco to deal with his trauma on his own. As far as closure went, seeing a guy dissolve into the air was pretty conclusive.
But it wasn't, because there were still the nightmares, and the visions, and now he's here with the knowledge that anyone could show up from any point in the timeline, including Eobard. That hadn't bothered him too much, before now.
Cisco has been trying not to move his head, so Taako can work on the braids more easily, but he does tilt it back enough that he can swallow down the rest of the wine in his cup. Sure, getting completely drunk isn't the ideal way of coping with things, but right now Cisco isn't even bothering to aim for ideal. He'll settle for temporarily effective. Even if it does make him run his mouth maybe a little more than he ought to. ]
I should've told you all of that ages ago. About him murdering me. I just... [ Cisco's voice cracks, and he clears his throat, waiting a moment until he can speak in some semblance of calm before he continues: ] ....it's stupid. I mean you've died, like, a dozen times or whatever, and you're not falling to pieces, and I died once and it was an erased timeline so it doesn't even fucking count probably and I'm a- a basket case.