(Lucretia chews the inside of her cheek while he considers her, acutely aware that she's going to say her bit and he's either going to accept it, or not, and that will be that. She can't keep trying, can't keep reevaluating the situation and then coming back to him to have another crack at it. He doesn't deserve that.)
That's what I wanted to talk to you about. I shared a dream memory with Lup, of leaving you all behind after I erased your memories and... I dunno, Taako.
(She sounds tired too. It's hard for her to talk about this, because until now she had been clinging to the last little bit of her plan to keep from feeling utterly hopeless and miserable with herself, but she doesn't have that any more. It's better this way, of course, but it still hurts.)
All this time, I thought... well, you know what I thought. I took Lup out of the equation because I was convinced that I was doing right by you, but in the end it only served to- to put my own mind at ease. And as if that wasn't bad enough, I assumed this decision was a harmless one, that it was only for a year and that you could... that nothing would come of it, and I was wrong. I was so, so wrong.
I didn't think of what that would do to you. I was too lost in what I thought was this grand, benevolent scheme to think about what you wanted, or needed. It wasn't my decision to make, but I did it anyway and I know that this is too little and too late but I just– I wanted to say something. I'm so sorry.
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That's what I wanted to talk to you about. I shared a dream memory with Lup, of leaving you all behind after I erased your memories and... I dunno, Taako.
(She sounds tired too. It's hard for her to talk about this, because until now she had been clinging to the last little bit of her plan to keep from feeling utterly hopeless and miserable with herself, but she doesn't have that any more. It's better this way, of course, but it still hurts.)
All this time, I thought... well, you know what I thought. I took Lup out of the equation because I was convinced that I was doing right by you, but in the end it only served to- to put my own mind at ease. And as if that wasn't bad enough, I assumed this decision was a harmless one, that it was only for a year and that you could... that nothing would come of it, and I was wrong. I was so, so wrong.
I didn't think of what that would do to you. I was too lost in what I thought was this grand, benevolent scheme to think about what you wanted, or needed. It wasn't my decision to make, but I did it anyway and I know that this is too little and too late but I just– I wanted to say something. I'm so sorry.