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Taako ([personal profile] spellslots) wrote2017-12-07 07:14 pm

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TAAKO
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-21 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This should... change something, maybe. He should feel less solid, less extant. There should be something that becomes clearer and makes it easier to accept - but there isn't. Numbly, stupidly, Kravitz puts the book he's been reading to one side and just... stares at his hand. Front, back, turning it over to examine. It's the same, it's all the same.

Except... ]


Do they know how long it lasts?

[ His instinct is to get up and go to Taako, to somehow make this better. But he knows, now, that just his being here is only making everything worse. Because he meant every word of the promises he made, and he's not going to be able to keep a single one. For the first time in a thousand years, he thinks of the time he has, and knows it to be limited. ]

I'm not... familiar, with how these things work.
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Kravitz nods his acceptance, because there really isn't anything he can do but accept it. For a long moment, he's quiet again. Just holds on to Taako's hand, grateful for the anchor and the warmth of him - because this is terrifying, if he's honest, and there's guilt there because only one of them will have to carry the weight of this going forward but there's nobody he'd rather have these moments with. ]

I'm... I'm so sorry.

[ Because that's right. Only one of them will have to carry this. This version of Kravitz may die, but the original is still out there, none the wiser. If only he could tell him somehow, about this place, but he's not even connected with the real manifestation of himself. He's just light, and air, and nothing, and there's very little worse he can think of that he could possibly have inflicted on the person who means more to him than any other. ]

I wish they hadn't - that I hadn't done this to you.
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 09:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ Kravitz hums, and nods again, and chooses to believe that. ]

If... if I'm as 'accurate' as they say, then... I suppose at least we can trust that the way I feel isn't too dissimilar from the way the - ah - the 'real' me would.

[ He looks at their joined hands, and there's a lightness to his gaze that says that he's still waiting for this blow to really connect. And maybe it never will. Maybe he doesn't have long enough. Perhaps that would be a kindness, all told.

After a moment, he looks up, and there's something of a pleading look in those dark, red eyes. ]


Obviously time isn't on our side, so I'm just going to say this, and I hope you won't be upset with me for it. Because the thing is... I don't know how, but I know that somehow, I'll find you again. The real me will. I meant what I said about being there as long as it's within my power to be, whether I'm wanted or not, and it might take some time but...

[ He looks away, seeming vaguely annoyed with himself, or perhaps just frustrated. ]

I know that anything I say now is... it's effectively meaningless, but...
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 10:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ The levity is definitely appreciated. Of course if anybody could make finding out that you're a very temporary construct of an existing person easier, it would be Taako. For the first time since this insane revelation, the numbness retreats enough to allow a small smile through. ]

It can't hurt, if you've got something you want to get off your chest. Allow me to be your sounding board.
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 11:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ Thank all the gods for that little grin, because otherwise it's just as likely that Kravitz would have assumed that was a legitimate question. It's difficult to know with Taako sometimes!

Instead, he laughs shortly, and lifts his eyebrows with a grin of his own. Putting on his best (worst) Cockney accent from work - why does he even still do that - he answers easily: ]


I thought you'd never ask.
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 11:48 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, I'm sure you'd like that, wouldn't you?

[ The accent dropped (for now), he quirks an eyebrow. ]

I'm a gambling man, love. I keep my cards close to my chest.

[ He doesn't, at all, but the thought is there at least. And he really does know that he should stop calling Taako love, but it's become such second nature over the past year that he doesn't even notice anymore. ]
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 12:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Under normal circumstances, he might have. Kravitz is trusting enough, at least of Taako, to believe that he would play fair. But, well - obviously things are a little different now. They don't know what sentence he might blink out of existence halfway through, for all they're making this effort to ignore that fact. ]

Or you could go first.

[ A small 'go on' gesture with his free hand, if only to illustrate yes, I see how stupid I would have to be to agree to this. ]
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 12:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ... Well, he wasn't expecting him to actually do it.

Kravitz takes a moment to answer, curling his fingers lightly around Taako's. He doesn't quite have the same freedom of consequence, here. Perhaps it's never going to catch him, ephemeral as he is - but he believes wholeheartedly that the real him is going to find this place eventually. Against all logic or otherwise. He just knows it, in his heart, and that's what faith is. ]


Not yet.

[ Far from telling Taako his own business, it's simply a softly spoken addition. The rest - you're capable of it, I know you are - goes necessarily unsaid. Even if the melody has been changed enough to where they two are no longer a harmony that fits, there will be someone.

Faith, again. ]
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Kravitz looks away with a pang of guilt - it feels so unfair to do this. He doesn't mind, maybe, being honest about the fact that he loves Taako. That much hasn't changed, and he doesn't think it ever will. But what he doesn't want to do is dwell on the fact that the Taako he knows loves him in return. It feels like such a cruel thing to talk about. It's hardly any fault of this version of him that he hasn't had that time, that other events have shouldered their way in and made him different. Not lesser, just different. It's no failing on Taako's part, but it still somehow feels as if mentioning it is somehow intrinsically a criticism.

He doesn't say the words. Just nods. It feels easier. ]


We were going to go on vacation after the wedding. Not - not our wedding, I mean - we weren't...

[ He clears his throat awkwardly. Definitely not a thing he has any physical need to do. Another of those little affectations of mortality. ]

I actually managed to talk you into coming to see the rest of the astral plane with me. You wanted beachy, of course, but I'm not exactly the most fond of... large bodies of water, so...
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ... There is the sudden, crushing realization that that particular cunning plan wasn't even close to as subtle as he thought it was at the time. He splutters, and who knew a man with no real blood circulation could blush like that? ]

Well - I - I thought maybe while we were there, yes, if there's time then maybe we could visit -

[ As if there was ever any danger of them not having extra time on the astral plane. There is beauty to it if you know where to look, and he does, and he's wanted to show it to Taako for a while - but if you'll excuse the pun, it isn't exactly the most lively of destinations. ]
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 02:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, she...

[ What can he say about the Raven Queen? Kravitz is while a separate being still in a sense part of her, so if anyone knows her then it's probably him - but she isn't exactly easy to describe. She is at once hard and yielding, sharp and gentle, warm and freezing cold. Her favor is both the easiest and the most difficult to earn... Perhaps it's small wonder, then, that Kravitz tripped over his feet to fall headfirst for the one he did. ]

... I think she'll like you.

[ He smiles. ]

She and Istus are fairly close, you know. Team Pro Natural Order.
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
She must have something in mind, then.

[ It doesn't exactly work that way, but it at least seems comforting that she hasn't lost her grip on the threads of fate. Whatever that would mean for them all.

A beat, and then he sighs, lifting his free hand to watch himself idly flex his fingers again. It still doesn't feel different. But he's so on edge now, and that just seems like it's going to be the way of it until this is over. ]


... I almost wish it would just happen.

[ He would stay, if the decision was his, but it isn't. ]
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[personal profile] rapsheet 2018-02-22 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Would he take the option if he knew it was there? Probably not. This is the strangest feeling he's ever experienced, and it's all he can do not to think too closely into it, because there's a depth of genuine existential fear there that it just wouldn't be productive to fall into.

He shrugs one shoulder, still looking at his hand for a moment before his eyes find Taako again, though they don't stay there long. Finally though, he allows himself to lean in just a little closer. Selfish. He's going to be gone, and he's going to have left this moment behind for Taako to carry with the others. More weight to join the extra almost visible on his shoulders. But right now, Kravitz isn't gone yet, he's still here, and he's... scared. ]


Just being here helps.

[ A sad smile, down at where their hands are joined, still. ]

If I was going to choose who spend this time with, I - well - I suppose you know that.

[ He exhales a breath of humorless laughter, and there's a certain vaguely strangled quality to his voice when he speaks again. For a man just this side of disconcertingly tall, he certainly looks smaller in this moment than he possibly ever has. ]

... I wanted to stay with you, you know. Here, like I said I would. I was ready to just...

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