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Except... ]
Do they know how long it lasts?
[ His instinct is to get up and go to Taako, to somehow make this better. But he knows, now, that just his being here is only making everything worse. Because he meant every word of the promises he made, and he's not going to be able to keep a single one. For the first time in a thousand years, he thinks of the time he has, and knows it to be limited. ]
I'm not... familiar, with how these things work.
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He can't imagine what it would be like, to be told he isn't real.
So he pushes down the anger at this situation and the hurt and makes his way to the bed, perching on the side as he reaches for Kravitz's hand.]
Some of-- some of them are already gone, there's no way to tell. I dunno how long we've got.
[That's worse in a way, than having a definite limit. Kravitz could disappear at any second.]
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I'm... I'm so sorry.
[ Because that's right. Only one of them will have to carry this. This version of Kravitz may die, but the original is still out there, none the wiser. If only he could tell him somehow, about this place, but he's not even connected with the real manifestation of himself. He's just light, and air, and nothing, and there's very little worse he can think of that he could possibly have inflicted on the person who means more to him than any other. ]
I wish they hadn't - that I hadn't done this to you.
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I'm-- fuck, bubbale, I'm gonna kill whoever's responsible, but at least we got this, yeah? I'm glad I got this.
[It hurts and it's confusing but he can't say he regrets the chance to speak with Kravitz before he returns to Fearun and everything falls back to the way it's supposed to be. This version of himself had a chance to talk to Kravtiz. That matters.]
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If... if I'm as 'accurate' as they say, then... I suppose at least we can trust that the way I feel isn't too dissimilar from the way the - ah - the 'real' me would.
[ He looks at their joined hands, and there's a lightness to his gaze that says that he's still waiting for this blow to really connect. And maybe it never will. Maybe he doesn't have long enough. Perhaps that would be a kindness, all told.
After a moment, he looks up, and there's something of a pleading look in those dark, red eyes. ]
Obviously time isn't on our side, so I'm just going to say this, and I hope you won't be upset with me for it. Because the thing is... I don't know how, but I know that somehow, I'll find you again. The real me will. I meant what I said about being there as long as it's within my power to be, whether I'm wanted or not, and it might take some time but...
[ He looks away, seeming vaguely annoyed with himself, or perhaps just frustrated. ]
I know that anything I say now is... it's effectively meaningless, but...
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It's a relief.]
Nothing you say is meaningless but you don't-- you don't gotta promise me anything. If this is it, that kinda sucks, I'll admit that. But uh, I'll see you again one way or another.
[Taako leans in for just a brief kiss, before pulling back to look at Kravitz again, the ghost of a smile on his lips.]
Is this where I should start making some crazy confessions to see how you'll take 'em?
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It can't hurt, if you've got something you want to get off your chest. Allow me to be your sounding board.
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Which is why he very somberly takes Kravtiz's face in his hands, and says in the most genuine tone he can muster (despite the little grin he's failing to hide):]
Will you call me daddy when we fuck?
[He's kidding. It's an in-joke that Kravitz isn't actually in on, but it's still funny even without that context.]
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Instead, he laughs shortly, and lifts his eyebrows with a grin of his own. Putting on his best (worst) Cockney accent from work - why does he even still do that - he answers easily: ]
I thought you'd never ask.
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[If he's being honest, the accent is kind of endearing in a silly sort of way, though he definitely doesn't want it coming up in the bedroom, jokes aside.]
You could sell yourself out, you know, tell me all your dirty secrets.
[That's cheating.]
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[ The accent dropped (for now), he quirks an eyebrow. ]
I'm a gambling man, love. I keep my cards close to my chest.
[ He doesn't, at all, but the thought is there at least. And he really does know that he should stop calling Taako love, but it's become such second nature over the past year that he doesn't even notice anymore. ]
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If you wanna make it even I'll tell you a secret in return?
[As if Kravitz is stupid enough to fall for that.]
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Or you could go first.
[ A small 'go on' gesture with his free hand, if only to illustrate yes, I see how stupid I would have to be to agree to this. ]
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And despite starting this as a joke, he might as well get a few things off his chest. Taako drops his hands back to Kravtiz's, tangling their fingers loosely together, keeping his gaze there as he speaks.]
I don't think I've ever loved someone. Like - romantically.
[That's why this is scary.]
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Kravitz takes a moment to answer, curling his fingers lightly around Taako's. He doesn't quite have the same freedom of consequence, here. Perhaps it's never going to catch him, ephemeral as he is - but he believes wholeheartedly that the real him is going to find this place eventually. Against all logic or otherwise. He just knows it, in his heart, and that's what faith is. ]
Not yet.
[ Far from telling Taako his own business, it's simply a softly spoken addition. The rest - you're capable of it, I know you are - goes necessarily unsaid. Even if the melody has been changed enough to where they two are no longer a harmony that fits, there will be someone.
Faith, again. ]
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I'm kinda getting that impression. [It's what he said to Loki, that this feels like something big and important. Like the one, as inane as that is.] Has he told you? The... other Taako, I guess.
[He still can't quite think of it as himself.]
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He doesn't say the words. Just nods. It feels easier. ]
We were going to go on vacation after the wedding. Not - not our wedding, I mean - we weren't...
[ He clears his throat awkwardly. Definitely not a thing he has any physical need to do. Another of those little affectations of mortality. ]
I actually managed to talk you into coming to see the rest of the astral plane with me. You wanted beachy, of course, but I'm not exactly the most fond of... large bodies of water, so...
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Dying stopped being so terrifying once they knew it wouldn't stick.]
The astral plane? For real?
[That's fucking wild. It doesn't exactly sound like a fun vacation spot, especially not when Taako has put a handful of people there.]
We couldn't compromise on like, a spa vacation? Or-- [Wait. Taako pauses and squints at Kravtiz, as if he's trying to figure out a puzzle.] Is it an excuse to introduce him to the Raven Queen?
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Well - I - I thought maybe while we were there, yes, if there's time then maybe we could visit -
[ As if there was ever any danger of them not having extra time on the astral plane. There is beauty to it if you know where to look, and he does, and he's wanted to show it to Taako for a while - but if you'll excuse the pun, it isn't exactly the most lively of destinations. ]
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I hope she's got a sense of humor cause you know cha boy is gonna talk shit.
[He hasn't got a deferential bone in his body, not even when it comes to gods.]
Even Istus threatened me and she seems pretty chill.
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[ What can he say about the Raven Queen? Kravitz is while a separate being still in a sense part of her, so if anyone knows her then it's probably him - but she isn't exactly easy to describe. She is at once hard and yielding, sharp and gentle, warm and freezing cold. Her favor is both the easiest and the most difficult to earn... Perhaps it's small wonder, then, that Kravitz tripped over his feet to fall headfirst for the one he did. ]
... I think she'll like you.
[ He smiles. ]
She and Istus are fairly close, you know. Team Pro Natural Order.
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[Istus was so heavily involved in that situation it made sense she might have spoken a word or two in their favor, to spare them from any unnecessary drama with the Raven Queen.]
Something came through the portal, from Istus. I dunno if she sent it or the portal was feeling it, but... it kinda seemed like it was asking me to trust her.
[He'd been worrying a lot about the situation with Kravitz, how it would resolve himself when he returned and then he'd gotten a strand of shimmering thread. It had helped, in its own way.]
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[ It doesn't exactly work that way, but it at least seems comforting that she hasn't lost her grip on the threads of fate. Whatever that would mean for them all.
A beat, and then he sighs, lifting his free hand to watch himself idly flex his fingers again. It still doesn't feel different. But he's so on edge now, and that just seems like it's going to be the way of it until this is over. ]
... I almost wish it would just happen.
[ He would stay, if the decision was his, but it isn't. ]
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Tell me what to do, Krav, anything that'll help.
[He still can't imagine how this feels but he wants to make it as easy as he possibly can.]
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He shrugs one shoulder, still looking at his hand for a moment before his eyes find Taako again, though they don't stay there long. Finally though, he allows himself to lean in just a little closer. Selfish. He's going to be gone, and he's going to have left this moment behind for Taako to carry with the others. More weight to join the extra almost visible on his shoulders. But right now, Kravitz isn't gone yet, he's still here, and he's... scared. ]
Just being here helps.
[ A sad smile, down at where their hands are joined, still. ]
If I was going to choose who spend this time with, I - well - I suppose you know that.
[ He exhales a breath of humorless laughter, and there's a certain vaguely strangled quality to his voice when he speaks again. For a man just this side of disconcertingly tall, he certainly looks smaller in this moment than he possibly ever has. ]
... I wanted to stay with you, you know. Here, like I said I would. I was ready to just...
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